The end of November is arriving, well, to be exact, it's 4 days from the end of November. How have I spent my November this year? Certainly, it has been different from the past years. Even though I'm writing this as though time passes too fast, however, I think otherwise. Time is passing too slowly. For some reason, graduation seems like it had occurred ages ago. That feeling of longing and positive pain is slowly vanishing as well. It's not that I do not miss them, but it's the fact that I might have accepted this fact and moved on. Ultimately, there's no point in dwelling over these friendships, because pondering over these just signifies the fear that these relationships might end, and I don't want to think of that. What have I done in November? I have not done much. I bought tons of books to catch up my readings with, I travelled to Malaysia and back, probably going to do so for a couple more weeks, I've met up with my friends, celebrated birthdays, turned 16 in November. That's quite a fair bit going on, but I still can't help but feel that life's been kinda boring. Simply put, I miss school. Back then, when we were cursing our lives - to be born in this Singaporean society - burying our heads in books, trying to do the best we can, I sort of miss that life. Because life seems a little empty now, or rather, there's no goal. But I don't blame that entirely on life of course, because I control life. And I've been lazy. Too lazy to apply for part time jobs, too lazy to contact endless tutors to give myself a headstart on the syllabus, to lazy to move my eyes away from Downton Abbey. But Downton Abbey is a nice period drama, better than all that Korean cousins I see on television. Sigh, with December approaching, I wish I could make use of this time better. Let me start with finding an economics tutor, shall I?