9:11 PM
Friday, January 18, 2013
New Blog @ sherlocked-otaku.blogspot.com !
7:23 AM
How to get into the mood to study. How. I desperately need to for I'm a dumb person who needs a headstart.
7:37 AM
Thursday, January 17, 2013
School started at 9 today, but the damned jam wouldn't let me reach on time to meet the rest at 8:45. I wouldn't say I felt exceptionally good this morning, just a little groggy and angsty all thanks to the jam. The morning had started off on no particular good or bad note. I board the bus, found a seat, sat down, listened to music while travelling to school on the people infested bus.
Today, was boring.
After finally entering the Auditorium and settling myself down, we soon started with the Project Work talk which was amazingly amusing and refreshing. The teachers were nice enough to not bore us with slides of words and the session ended quickly. Then, we had this survey which had the word 'exam' popping up right in front of me whether I wanted it to or not. The questions were repetitive, annoying and had nothing to do with profiling, because they had called it a profiling test. Following, we had a 45 minute break and I spent a good time chatting about anime and manga with people before the talk with the principal started.Or rather, deputy principal. The seniors from HC Jam came up to the podium first, introducing the Talentime in Hwa Chong and obviously, was trying to get us to join. And there I was sulking away, thinking, "Take this to somwhere else, for I have nothing to show off or any talent that you're searching for in particular". And then, they went on and on about showcasing talents and minute by minute, the more useless I felt. Finally, the principal, I mean deputy principal came up. I had expected yet another boring talk like all talks with principals are, but I have taken a liking to her just because of this talk. I like how her speech makes sense and goes straight to the point without beating about the bush. In the middle of the thought, she touched on topics that I was rather sensitive towards and to be very honest, I was on the verge of tearing, but I realised, if she had to bring this up, I can't be the only one experiencing the 'I'm-useless' syndrome. I'm pretty sure that there are other people like me, who have not found things that they are good at, or simply can't get themselves to feel good about themselves. The talk ended on a light note and we were dismissed.
We made our way to the high school section to hand in some stuff before heading to the canteen for lunch. Then, for some queer reason, it struck us that the food there didn't seem so appealing any longer, so we headed back to the college canteen for some food to chill our growling stomachs down. We were wondering if we should go to the Jurong library, or Nanyang, but when we finally walked all the way to the bus stop, we decided to just head back home instead.
I have no idea why this post was written in such a style. Pardon me.
7:33 AM
Friday, January 11, 2013
A life I would like to live:
If I could choose how I want my life to be, this would be how I want it to be.
I wish I had better brains, and I would be at least top 10 in level in whatever school I'm in. And I would be pretty, then maybe I'll be able to feel good about myself once in a while. I wish I would be able to choose the path I want to walk down on all by myself.
I would be a detective/police woman/private investigator. I would bring justice to the world. I would then clear all misunderstandings people have about criminals and give them the respect they ought to have when they finally return to society. I would study criminal psychology to understand criminals better.
Or maybe, I'd be content being a bartender/barista. Then I'd shake my cocktails for the party people and whip up some good coffee for the tired souls in the society.
I don't even mind being an idol, or part of an unknown band. I would play the drums, rap, beatbox all I want and maybe get a few fans.
This is the life I want to lead.
Sadly, seems rather impossible.
7:26 AM
I don't know why, I feel like writing blog post after blog post to keep myself entertained. So here I am.
I just need to adjust my thoughts and think about how JC life is going to be like.
1) DO NOT GET DISTRACTED.
2) WORK HARD
3) AIM AT LEAST FOR AN A
4) I wish I could stop thinking that I'm useless. (But the truth is, I am.)
7:23 AM
Yesterday, I received my O level Chinese results. They weren't exactly ideal, or rather, they weren't ideal at all. If I put in more effort, I should have gotten that A. I've always been getting A, so it's rather disappointing that I can't even get A for Os.
Anyway, moving onto the brighter part of the post... I got 3rd in class! God knows how I did that. But you know if some things had never happened, that prize probably wouldn't be mine. Honestly, I don't think I really deserved that prize, but thanks to everyone who congratulated me. Prizes should be given out according to effort, and not results though. I know so many other people who worked so much harder than me. They really deserved the prize, not me. Like, I don't think the first and second in class put in even 1/10th as much effort as many others did.
And today! I went to HCJC's open house with the rest. It was awesome, but kind of frightening to know that next Monday, I'll be officially part of that gigantic school compound. And truth be told, I realised how I've gotten used to a female environment, I can't stare at a guy. I can't talk to a guy, okay maybe I did. But that's not the point, how am I supposed to talk to the rest.
And maybe, just maybe, if I worked really hard, would it all pay off. Would I show all those suckers that I might not be pretty or popular as you guys, but, in a way, I'm more determined.
Sigh, JC life. What surprises would it bring.
2:42 AM
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
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