8:27 PM
Saturday, June 30, 2012
BRING ME BACK TO LAST NIGHT.
BRING ME BACK NOW.
9:40 AM
It was like
a dream. The moment the doors open, and everyone started fighting for spaces at
the front few rows, the dream had started. The doors had opened early, for some
unknown reason, and my heart did a little flip when I practically ran into the
warehouse. This, this place would be where we would scream out hearts out along
with the music, this place would be where we would jump and head-bang along
with OOR.
For about 40 minutes or so, we
waited and waited, waited for those 4 to appear on stage. And my dream finally
reached its climax when all of a sudden, all of us were shrouded in pitch-black
darkness and a split second later, rays of bright blue light flashed across our
eyes. Everyone around me has started screaming their heads off, but I just
remained pretty silent, straining my eyes, to look for the 4 shadows that would
appear soon. And they did, after 20 seconds or so, on that small stage that was
even smaller than the stage at my school’s auditorium.
When most of the stage lights
had come back on, lighting up most of the warehouse, I finally got to see them.
The screaming around me got worse, but I still remained silent. My hand had flown
to my mouth, and I thought - this was it. The day I’ve been waiting so long
for, was here! And then, I opened my mouth, and pray that the person in front
of me didn’t go deaf.
Directly in front of me, was the
guitarist, Ryouta, wearing an ‘I love USS’ shirt. Then, a little to the right,
was Taka, singing right in the middle of the stage. At the back of the stage, blocked
by all the drums and cymbals, was Tomoya. And finally, at the right side of the
stage, stood the bassist, Toru. Anyone would have been used to watching them
getting all high and crazy in their Promotional Videos, but they were exactly
the same during their live.
At first, my eyes were all on
Taka, of course, as he is the lead vocalist of the band. I’ve heard his holy
voice over headphones, and finally, I got to listen to it live – amplified by a
thousand times. And after the concert, I joked to myself that I finally got to
see his face clearly. I never really thought that Taka was really hot or really
ikemen, but I really adored and ‘admired’ his voice. His ability to sing yet
scream so well, is one I would die for.
Next, I was focusing on Ryouta,
before he stripped yes, in case you were wondering I’m some pervert. But, his
fingers were damn sexy, so long and slim. And the way they moved up and down
the neck of the guitar so quickly made me feel so excited. He played the guitar
so effortlessly, I admit I’m a little jealous. He also stuck his tongue out
quite a number of times, if not most of the time, and his smile is really nice :D
As Toru was at the other side of
the stage, I couldn’t really see him, but when he finally played his way to the
left side of the stage. I swear my heart went doki-doki, I swear with all my
heart and soul. He was so hot. With his white hair already dripping wet by the
third song, when he head-banged, I could practically see droplets of ‘flying’ sweat
glittering under the bright stage lights. And his eyes, they’re so pretty!
Please keep your white hair! And his bass, was a freaking, Gibson. A GIBSON.
When I saw it, my love for him multiplied by a million times.
I never really took notice of
Tomoya when all of us were busy screaming and highing, but whenever it was time
for the instrumentals’ solo, I couldn’t help but scream in awe at his drum
skills. His sense of rhythm were so good and I wonder how long it took for him
to reach that level. And it wasn’t till encore that he came to the front and
threw drum sticks to the audience (which I failed to catch). I really respect
him, like I respect all drummers. Drummers aren’t always in the spotlight, but
what they do is set the rhythm and base of song, and that’s the beauty of
drums.
When they took over the stage,
the stage didn’t look so small anymore. How they playfully ran and jumped about
made the stage look so huge, I forgot how small it was before until it ended. I’m
glad, though they looked like they had fun, and everyone in the crowd had fun
as well.
Here and then during the
concert, my voice/arm would give way. My voice would either break while shouting
out the lyrics, or I’d be too tired to raise my arm anymore. But still, it was
a wonderful experience, especially the encore.
After they left the stage to get
prepared for encore, the crowd when silent for a while, and then gradually, the
whole warehouse was filled with echoes of “encore” in Japanese. However, this
died down fast and once again, awkward silence took over when OOR didn’t appear
again. Thank god this group of guys took the initiative to start singing the
opening of Answer Is Near and everyone followed. We sang for about a full 5
minutes before they finally reappeared again.
Now, it has been 4 hours since
my dream ended and yet, every chord that Toru and Ryouta played is still
ringing in my head, every beat that Tomoya hit is still beating along with my
heart, and every note that Taka sang still make me crave for more.
ONE OK ROCK, Start Walking the
World Tour @ Singapore, *Scape, 30/06/12 – a concert full of head-bangs and
muscle aches, but one I’ll never forget.
10:56 AM
Friday, June 29, 2012
Dear Chicken,
I don't think you'll ever see this but, okay, here goes.
I know that we bully and tease you sometimes, if not all the time, but I seriously hope that that isn't the reason why you're somehow avoiding us, or not opening up to us at all. I know you don't want us to worry for you and stuff, but not telling us anything is going to make us worry even more. We are your friends! We're here to help when you need a shoulder to lean on, or when you need to break down, we won't laugh at you for crying/complaining/blabbering about how you feel about certain things. You know, you hardly show emotions, more like never. You NEVER show your emotions, and that makes it hard to understand you.
I hate you.
I hate you, because you don't show any emotions other than 'tch' and 'toopid'. Seriously, is that all you can say? I know you can handle your own personal businesses and probably don't need our help or anything, but at least don't act like you're some muscle-man or something. Everyone needs help at times, it's not just me, not just any of the watermelons, everyone needs help. I just realised, you never complain. You NEVER complain! I've never seen you complain about even the musical, even if I was shouting away about how much I hated it like some mad-pudding. I've never heard you complain much about any teacher, any animal, any chicken, other than mango and soya bean.
Seriously,
Just which is your true self. I'm dying to know.
Just get angry for once, no matter how much you can tolerate.
Honestly, what are friends for?
10:44 AM
| “ | The strong one doesn’t win. The one that wins is strong. | „ |
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10:02 AM
IT'S ONE OK ROCK CONCERT DAY!
Ohtian. I'm so excited I feel like hopping all around the house.
WE ARE GOING TO SEE THEM TOMORROW!!!!
Need to stock up on Strepsils if not I'll seriously lose my voice tomorrow.
Countdown to concert: 0 days!
Countdown to Blocks: 3 more days!
Jiayou everybody!
Nights,
Wan Xin <3
8:22 AM
Drama Review: Control ~Hanzai Shinri Sousa~
Since exams are coming, I shall just make this short and sweet.
Control, I feel has one of the best plots for anyone loving forensic psychology as it's filled with tons of facts and it comes with How-To-Tell-Apart-Liars 101. However, this drama isn't the best, the best so far has got to be Lady ~Saigo no Hanzai Profile~ as far as profiling is concerned. Yes, this drama focuses a lot on the psychological facts, but what makes a good drama good are the script, the cast and the acting.
I expected quite a bit for this drama as it featured Fujiki Naohito, yes, that really famous male character from Hotaru no Hikaru. However, I felt that the script, maybe, failed to bring out the actor in him. His character, was first of all, aloof, and to make it worse, he was a university professor, which makes him somewhat of a geek(?) who does nothing to help in investigations other than spout psychological jargon. Next, Matsushita Nao, never watched her dramas, this is my first and it has left sort of a bad impression on her acting. Her acting really lacks convincing and although I find that her character was meant to be a really hot-headed and passionate character, I found her portrayal somewhat soft spoken in a way, for example, not passionate enough to be passionate, and her acting during emotional parts tend to be overly emotional - something I can't stand.
The supporting cast's acting are also of amateur standards, and they fail to make an impression upon the viewers. It's like those 'oh-you-exist' moments when they appear in each episode. They lack chemistry with the main cast as well, which is really irritating. Compared to Boss, where I thought everyone was a main character as they each portrayed their distinct personalities really well, this drama's cast lacked tons of chemistry, which made the drama rather choppy in the sense of the flow.
So, unless you're really interested in telling apart liars from everyone, I do not recommend this drama actually.
5:14 AM
Thursday, June 28, 2012
OMG. OMG. OMG.
1/5 of ARASHI is in SINGAPORE. YES OMG. SAKURAI SHO IS IN SINGAPOREEEEE!!!
Although I won't get to see him because of blocks .__. but it's ok! I wish for his filming to go smoothly and I hope he enjoys his stay in Singapore <3
Tomorrow's Running Man. OMG I can't wait! I'll probably hide somewhere... somewhere... IDK the school has no where where I can hide! MY TOILET IS OUT OF BOUNDSSSS NUUUUUU D:
Sigh, But I CANT WAIT<3
5:38 AM
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Just a little more blogging before starting on Math.
I shall do an anime/drama rant then.
Recently, due to Blocks, I have not been catching up on anime, which is a really saddening thing (because that just means that... I have a lot of catching up to do, after blocks!)
This drama that I mentioned before and am currently watching is this.
CONTROL ~HANZAI SHINRI SOUSA~
Hanzai Shinri Sousa, translated into English means, looking into the a criminal's mind and what the criminal is thinking about. Making use of criminal psychology, the main character is able to tell whether a witness or a suspect is lying, reliable or telling the truth. The easiest way of telling if someone is lying is through body actions or eye movement. I'm not going to blog a lot about how, to know you have to research/watch this drama yourself. Although this drama's plot is absolutely splendid, I might not say so for the cast. I just feel
that the actors lack the punch, the convincing part of acting. The female main character plays a hot-blooded police detective, but I simply can't join in the action with her 'physically' when she's all raging and stuff, because her acting is average. The rest of the cast lack lots of chemistry and their faces are constantly -__- oh dear me, if this drama had been given a better cast, I believe it would have achieved much more than what it had achieved.
What I would recommend for a really good forensic psychology/criminal psychology drama, would be this.
LADY ~SAIGO NO HANZAI PROFILE~
This drama is so much more action packed, with a convincing cast and a script with much more substance. Compared to the former, this drama delivers more than just having the main character standing behind the scenes and pointing out whether the suspect is telling the truth or not. No. In this drama, there are more on scene investigation shoots and through evidences, the characters, through profiling, figure out how the murder was carried out, and if there was a 'fantasy' behind the murder. And in this drama, one is introduced to many other kinds of profiling, such as geographic profiling, where one who is extremely good with numbers help predict the next crime scene.
Something similar lies in this two dramas though - something just has to happen to main character's fathers. But I don't mind, as long as I continue to get fed with more psychological brain food (:
Wan Xin
4:57 AM
I woke up this morning, to an extremely horrible and devastating piece of news.
Wang Lao Shi was going to quit being a teacher in Nanyang.
It came to me as a huge shock, I never thought that she would really quit so soon. I wish her success in her new job nevertheless.
Who is Wang Lao Shi to me? She's a really special and wonderful coach, young and fun teacher and a nice person to speak and chat with as a friend. It might be due to the fact that she is younger than the other teachers, but I've always had this feeling that she treats her students as friends, rather than well, students!
I remembered when she first taught us in Secondary One, she was quite nice I guess, but she PMS-ed a lot, and many of us didn't like her. We gave her the nickname: Wang Witch (some kind of a remade version of Wicked West Witch I think). I didn't exactly hate her, but no one likes it when a teachers storms into class on a hot and humid day, and starts scolding the class like, "Hey, I'm angry and I don't feel like teaching you."
In Secondary Two, we approached her... and requested her to be our OM Coach. Firstly, it started out really blandly. We weren't very close to her, nor was she extremely close to us. Rehearsing sessions at the boarding school and our weekly meeting sessions were not what I would call fun, or rather, it was stressful. I remember her asking us, "Are you really sure you can do it?" and "Do you guys really wanna go to Shanghai?" and without doubt, we would answer her with a "YES!" like innocent, pure Sec Twos. And maybe that was when she felt our determination. Meeting sessions became really fun (though not quite productive) and rehearsals often ended on a happy note, and we started joking around with one another.
Before we knew it, we were off to Shanghai with our props and costumes, ready to rock the stage. We never expected we would have achieved something. 2nd felt like a faraway dream when we first started out, but when each of us took that plaque in our hands, I'm sure everyone felt the same way as me. We did it.
In Secondary Three, we embarked yet on another mission - OM Shanghai'12. This time, it really wasn't easy. Even though we had the experience from the previous competitions, everyone was separated into our own classes, and no one was in the same class as one another. Our talented scriptwriters, Jingwen and Jessica had decided not to join us this time round and this posed as yet another problem for us. There was little communication amongst all of us, and we all know this journey ain't gonna be as smooth as before. But Wang Lao Shi stood by us and kept pushing us till the very end. Honestly, deep down, I knew we might not win anything and told myself to stay strong, but when we actually got 3rd, I was surprisingly happy about it even though I kept crying and crying.
Wang Lao Shi, even if you're going to be gone, I will always respect you as an awesome coach, for being there and giving us a push when we needed one. 王老师，谢谢！
8:57 AM
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
I want to rant so badly, but I need to memorise Biology.
I NEED TO RANT ON ELITISM AND STEREOTYPING YES.
I guess I'll put that off to after Blocks, or tomorrow even.
8:42 AM
I feel inferior. I always do. The moment I stepped into Nanyang, I did.
Everyone around me is always better than me in something. They're either good with sports, or good with their studies. I, however, have none. I'm in choir, but I can't even sing! What irony.
All I am is - high, enthusiastic. I'm not even reliable. Even if teachers see me as a person with potential leadership qualities. I end up losing. Real hard. So hard, I won't fight anymore.
Everyone has something, a gift from god. Looks, brains, athletic skills. I, however, have none. Maybe God ran out of gifts last minute, and decided to ignore me, thinking that I'll probably be fine without one. But the point it, I'm not.
I study hard to get good results, whereas some others can simply slack away and achieve results on par or even better than me. I'm not going to rant about looks, because I can't be bothered about appearances, fine, maybe a little, but I don't really... bother that much. I was born with no sports talent, like 0%, and it makes me feel so bad when other get it immediately and I don't. It feels just so annoying, it makes me feel so dumb and stupid compared to others. Musical talent, I doubt I have anything much, even if I do have. I can't sing for god sake, someone tell me why I'm in choir again. I gave up on piano, because I thought it would be too taxing for myself.
Lastly, I wonder what I am to my friends. I'm glad, that some people actually trust me, and I thank you guys for entrusting me with your secrets, and personal stuff, I really thank you guys for believing in me. Thank you so much. I never thought that I'll be 'trustworthy' enough for you guys to pour out so much of your personal matters to me. I never thought I was someone like that. I always thought that people have this bad impression of me, about how I'm flippant with studies and life, about how I'm forever so high, I might as well get transported into IMH right now. Therefore, thank you (: But I wonder how many of my long-term good friends think of me. I mean, I don't doubt them, I definitely don't! But, sometimes, people have periods of time when you get irritated, even if it's someone you love. It's within human nature, no one can stop it. Sometimes, I feel I'm too blunt/selfish, and end up regretting what came out of my mouth. Then, I internally slap myself for saying things I should not have. But, I feel we should be honest, with each other, shouldn't we? I sound like I'm covering up for my selfishness, oh dear.
Not being able to understand people's feelings well, is probably another of my weak points. And probably also one of my main drives to actually study psychology. People are prone to hiding feelings, and I seriously don't want my friends to hide their feelings when they are feeling upset or someone to lie to me, just because they think I might get angry. I want to know the truth. That is all. And studying psychology will probably help me understand myself and human nature better. Telling how someone feels based on actions, is cool, and helpful. And thanks to researching a bit, I've found out how to tell when someone is feeling insecure/uncomfortable around me. Tellling if someone is lying is possible to master, but it will take some time.But then again, what if people think I'm scary because I can 'read' them? Sigh, dilemmas in life.
I know this blog post might make me sound like a b****. People will start telling me, "Why not fight hard for it?", or "Why blame it on God?" or something else. The point is, you'll never understand how someone with absolutely no talent feels. That feeling is terrible. Having nothing to own is terrible, having nothing to be proud of is terrible. I'm sorry for ranting. And thank you, if you've read this whole post without thinking that I'm some sort of delusional student.
7:24 AM
Countdown: One Ok Rock in 4 days and Blocks in... I don't wanna know.
But it's the second day of school since June hols ended and boy, classes have been boring, except Chinese... maybe. Chinese today was practically spent changing human terms to organic waste terms. Jiaqi laughed a lot, and I think our laughter was pretty obvious, but hey, laughter, is the best medicine. You can't deny someone of the best MAD-icine x)
Revising Biology has been hell, or rather, worse than hell. Heck, I don't think I'm even going to use all these information I've memorised in the future! Or at least those about the plants, birds and bees. Which reminds me, last year, when Mdm Hanim took out class for PCCG, she asked me: "What are the birds and the bees?" And I can't believe I was so innocent as to answer... "Pollination." - inserts oh god why.jpeg- WHY WAS I SO INNOCENT. And maybe Hanim gave me the -insert no-jpeg- face, but oh well, what has been done, has been done.
While I'm writing this post, I have no idea why there are so many lizards crawling around. I mean, lizards are cute and all, but why so many. I've spotted 3 so far... is today some lizards' night out? I don't think so.
My worst fear still are, caterpillars. Imagine me freaking out when a larvae appears oh so wonderfully in HIGH DEFINITION on the Biology Textbook -inserts oh-god-why.jpeg again-
Oh well, time for Bio again. JIAYOU MINNA!
Wan Xin
6:22 AM
Monday, June 25, 2012
Recently... I've not been catching up with fandom... AT ALL.
I have no idea why. It's not like I've lost interest in fandom, but more like I can't bring myself to jump into the world of fandom once again.
Sec 4 is an important year, everyone knows it. I just prefer to put studies as my top priority as of now. If I were to jump back to fandom, I'll guarantee that I would not be able to cross the bridge at all.
Today, in school, I saw 2 more Arashi and KAT-TUN fans. I never fail to spazz when I know more people actually appreciate J-POP, and the Japanese culture. I hope I'll meet them again :D
6:15 AM
It's officially the start of Term 3.
I repeat. Term 3, and not first day of school. I don't get why teachers never get this right.
25/06/12 has been a really sick day. Literally. After P.E, my stomach juices were protesting against me, threatening to pour out anytime. Worst feeling ever. But floorball was really fun, except the fact that my leg got whacked a few times by the other sticks, and all I can see all the time are flashes of yellow, including the ball. Chem was literally boring, and confusing. IH was fun - as usual :)
The highlight of the day probably were the class photos. I looked really... glam? And quote Chicken, "Desperately trying to look taller than Mr Ang." Hey. I'm already am, even without the desperately.
Countdown. It's like... 7 more days to Block Test 2 and 5 more days to One Ok Rock concert. I'm really excited for the latter, but totally nonchalant towards the former. Maybe I should rant about the musical one day. One fine day when I finally have the time.
AND despite the busy revision schedule I planned for myself, I still manage to finish up till episode 8 of Control -Hanzai Shinri Sousa- . I can't express my love for this drama and its characters, although I find the main female character quite irritating. She's like the typical good police, who would persuade the criminals that killing is still bad no matter what. The really kick-ass character is the professor.
This drama is really going to make me dive further into my non-idealistic dream of getting into the F.B.I, or even better, the Tokyo Metropolitan Police Department. One day when I go Japan, I'll probably camwhore in front of the building... Maybe not /:
Adios!
Wan Xin (:
8:54 AM
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Summer 2012 - an awfully disappointing season to begin the start of June with.
The lack of detective dramas, the sudden spamming of soap opera plotted dramas are the downsides of this season.
If there's any genre that Japan has been really successful at producing, I would say it's detective and crime. If you call Korea, the king of romance dramas, and Taiwan, the queen of soap opera dramas, I would call Japan, the ruler of all crime and mystery drama. (Singapore's probably Japan's disciple or something)
Yet, there are only 2 detective dramas out of the gazillion family, tear-jerking dramas in the whole list! And their plots are not even satisfactory to start off with.
Firstly, there is some detective drama that circles around lives of kindergarten kids and a teacher with amazing deduction skills. And they had to pick the worst actress for the main character, the Japanese version of Kristen Stewart, Tabe Mikako. I have had enough of her stone face in Jiu and now you want me to tolerate her again? If not for the fact that Koike Teppei is appearing, I would cancel this off my list immediately!
Secondly, there is another Hidarime similarly plotted drama, which cast I'm really pleased with, since they casted Yamada Yu. Splendid. I missed her acting so much. But the plot? Meh. Seeing murderers in the eye and someone makes use of this ability to solve crimes. Right. How interesting. I'd rather watch Aiba and the wannabe Holmes cat.
And the rest? Soap operas.
There's one that casted Mizobata Junpei as a runaway husband and Naka Riisa as his wife. Retarded plot and failure of assigning roles, but I'd watch this for Junpei's acting skills. I've seen him act as a lovesick psycho, a high school detective and a boy with unrequited love. Watching him act as a husband when he's only 24 is going to be quite epic.
Another thing I don't understand is why Takei Emi is always casted in some emotional, psychological, family, heart-breaking drama. I mean come on, she's only 19 in real life. How do you expect her to actually portray someone who is oh so in love that she can die for someone. I think it's impossible and hard on her. But then again, it shows how good her acting is.
Recently, on Singapore TV, I've seen Rainie Yang's drama, Drunken to Love You, being aired at 10PM on Channel U daily (except on Saturdays and Sundays) and I'm quite glad that she has finally broken out of being casted as a character with extreme attitude problems. If I didn't remember wrongly, she once acted as a totally crazy unfashionable girl and another, a girl with serious anger management issues and an otaku who loves this princely character. For her to be able to finally act a character with more depth, I'm glad that directors have given her a chance to let us see more of what she can do.
That's all I guess. I'm really tired from all this typing.
Wan Xin
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