I admit. I have inferiority issues. Major ones at that. I don't know how to put it, but it's just this feeling one has when you feel just darn useless compared to people around you. Do you know that feeling? I know it too well. Have you ever been that one person who isn't particularly good at anything? Well, I think I have always been one of those people.


I try to do well in a sport, but end up getting in a mess.
I try my best to sing well, but nothing comes out of it.
I try to draw something, but everything ends up in the dustbin
I try to write something, I realised how bad my language is compared to everyone else.
I tried and I tried. 

1) Something that I'm not good in, even though I'm in it

Choir. Someone tell me why I'm in choir again? Naturally, when one hears that someone is from choir, she thinks, "Oh! She can sing well!" Yeah right. I'm probably like the only example in the world, the only chorister who doesn't sing well and just stands at the background. It's frustrating! It really is! Because I love singing. I've been singing since P1, is there a way to not love singing?

2) I don't have anything.

Yes. I can't find a single thing that I'm good at. I'm a goner at any kind of sports, don't have a brain suited for studies and basically, I don't have a single talent. I know it might sound dumb for me to want a talent, but I really do want one. Heck, even if one doesn't have a talent, one looks good. In today's society, it always works out like that. But hey! I'm special! I have NONE. No looks, no talent, nothing to be proud of. It makes me feel really useless, extremely helplessly useless. I want to run! But I can't. I want to sing! But I can't do so properly. I want to be pretty and buy pretty clothes! But I was born this way. I don't even ask for looks. I just want to be good at something. I can't draw, can't write, can't do anything. It's like I was born into this world without a purpose. And I'm so sick and tired of looking out for that purpose I was born into this world for, I have long given up. GIVEN UP. Frustrated and dead.

I'm so tired of living. Someone tell me what to do.