And the truth comes hitting me like a bullet(?)

Tomorrow, in 9 minutes, it's officially going to be our last day of official lessons in Nanyang.

How much time have I spent sleeping in class? How much time have I spent fooling around in class? How much time have I spent concentrating in Math class, digging my brains out, trying to solve that one question and along with it, comes a sense of accomplishment.

Yes, face it.

We are going to JC soon, and our Nanyang life is officially ending in a mere few weeks.

I'm going to miss Nanyang, no matter how much criticism I have voiced out, no matter how much I have complained about the school.

I still love you Nanyang. I will always remember you.

I LOVE YOU, NANYANG.

The last P.E lesson, the last supper.

Refused to get my ass on court today because something terrible would happen.

Honestly, I'm glad P.E is over. I guess it differs for everyone. For me, P.E has always been something fun and all, but eventually, it became a platform for me to think about life. I am sorry for being so stubborn and acting like a spoilt child. But I seriously can't do it. I definitely can't. You guys can say it's just for fun. But it's fun because you guys are good at it. Maybe you guys will never understand how it feels to be me. You guys don't want to either. I feel loved and all, but sometimes, try to understand.

Was wondering about life on the bus today. Took the bus with Melissa but did not talk at all. Looking at her back, I wondered how she felt about her life, which I wanted to live so much. But then again, one who leads a gray coloured life would never be able to live a colourful life.

"I shall not get myself involved in things that I am not needed in."

"You said I had talent. So what is it?"

"I have no talent, therefore I'm envious."

Compared to others, I think I could be leading a life of gray.

While others lives are oh-so-colourful, mine just speaks nothing but gray.

It has come to this stand still point where nothing will change any longer and no matter how hard I try, things would just stay the same.

The colour of gray would never be influenced by other colours, since it's mundane and boring. What people leading colourful lives should be wary of, is not to come too near to the colour gray, because it would slowly bring your lives to a standstill as well.

So... maybe... maybe I'm thinking too much.

Or perhaps, am I living a life of black?

Here's just another post on Fall Anime because I seriously need to blog about how excited I am for this season.

It is just flawless. Nothing else can describe this season but flawless.

With the Sci-Fi genre taking the lead in this season's anime, with 3 shoujo animes, and the other really random ones in toll, it is no wonder why this season is no doubt, going to be fighting hard against Spring to earn "Best Season of the 2012".

In Spring, we had many good animes (some which are still ongoing), my personal favourites (Accel World, Hyouka and Kuroko no Basket) are not really anything like other expert anime bloggers. However, if I have the time, I would definitely watch those high recommended, like Jormungand, Sakamichi no Apollon and Fate/Zero. Hyouka's animation is definitely unrivaled, and being a sucker for the mystery genre, this anime is definitely my favourite, up till now. It's kinda sad it's going to end soon though D:::

Summer was pretty much of a boring season. There was a sudden in flux of erotic/fantasy genre animes such as Dakara Boku wa, H ga Dekinai, Campione and Hagure Yuusha no Estetica. I have tried watching them (I'm serious) and honestly, I didn't really like them. Dakara was okay, but the amount of ero was really too much for me to take it. I enjoyed Campione's plot, but I would have preferred to watch it without the ero factor. And Hagure was just... sorry, in my opinion, quite disgusting (overly big sized boobs) The main highlight which stole the limelight away from other Summer animes was definitely Sword Art Online, without any doubt. With it's animation done by A-1 pictures, combined with the amazing plot, anyone would be a fool to miss it :< Then, there was Arcana Famiglia, Natsuyuki Rendezvous (which I don't plan to watch). Arcana Famiglia was a good watch while it lasted. Poor plot and character development though.

NOW. FALL HAS COME ;A;

Psycho Pass, Robotic Notes, Code:Breaker, Shin Sekai Yori, Zetsuen no Tempest, Magi, K, Little Busters, Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun, Sukitte Ii Na Yo. All the goodness! The production companies I look forward to seeing their end-products from this time are definitely A-1 pictures, GoHands and Production I.G. Hope they come up with something beautiful and enjoyable at the same time<3

I don't know why, but this blog has been garnering many views o__o I wonder if it's just spammers or maybe people actually do read this  blog but I don't really care because I have never considered blogging to be my source of income or whatever in the future.

I've been really sick today and I just feel like lying on the bed and rolling around on the cold bed sheet covers but when I turn and look at the amount of work I have to do, that thought just disappears. Sigh. I guess that's what you get for living in academic obsessed Singapore.

Ever since this morning, my nose has been running, my head has been spinning and I honestly don't know what to do. But on the brighter side, I finally understand irritating vectors ;A; All the arrows are making my headache worse, but at least I can take my examination in peace now u__u

A few more days to End of Years! You can do it! ^__^

Officially dying, so I shall give up on L.A.

Gahhh, really feel like sleeping, but don't feel like sleeping. You get what I mean right? > <

Sigh... 12 more days to EOYs and I'm not sure if I'm even prepared. Actually to say the truth, I think this time, I'm the least prepared for all 4 years. Maybe because of the overwhelming number of subjects I have to study for .__. (and topics)

Today was quite an epic day. I nearly died. Went to eat Pizza Hut and left my Math papers there. And my bus was coming in 2 minutes. Had to run I don't know how many hundred metres back to get it, and how many metres back to the bus stop. But I made it in time, because the bus was 5 minutes late. Thank god for Clementi peak hour jam.

There are like a gazillion topics to study for Chemistry, gazillion topics to memorise for Biology and a gazillion topics left for me to understand for Physics. Thank god, I'm quite okay with Math. And I do repeat, Thank God.

Learning to sing the graduating song seemed like such a depressing thing. I mean, are we really going to graduate soon? It all seemed to happen too quickly. Graces, Watermelon's trip, EOYs and then graduation. It's just a mere 50 days from grad night (which I'm not even going to go for). and 49 days from Chinese O Levels. Sigh.

I have this dream of planning the perfect 'graduation night' with Celeste. Like perfect.

In the morning, we shall go Sentosa, and play at the beach. Then in the afternoon, we shall go to Marina Bay Sands/Universal Studios. Lastly, dinner at Marina Barrage's grass thing. Ahhh, how romantic would it be? Not like it's supposed to be romantic but hey, it's the feel that counts ;A;

When Cher said she refused to hug any of us during Graduation Day, I honestly felt a teeny weeny teeny weeny bit disappointed (emphasizes on teeny weeny in case that turtle gets the wrong opinion, no I AM NOT LES) I mean, a hug from anyone after a year of hard work always feels great, especially if it comes from one of your closest friends (not saying that we're the best of buddies or anything, I don't even know how you actually feel about me -__-) If it were me, free hugs for everyone >:D OMG, I'm going to hug all my tuition buddies first. Viper, the Ravenclaw and Banana Minion xD and then, after that, I maybe I should go hug my OM mates, then I'll give 10 hugs each to Watermelons. OMG.OMG. I think I'm going to cry on that day singing Grad Photo. Meh.

Let's do our best for EOYs!

I wanna hug every single one of watermelons heh!

Been staying up real late now a days. Night world.

I dedicate this post to you <3

Dear Arashi,

You guys are officially 13 years old HAHA xD

13周年おめでとう!<3

Thank you guys for always brightening up my life<3 It has been 13 years of bromance, 13 years of pure gayness and I hope this legacy goes on and on and on.

Continue to do the best you guys can even if you guys are getting older :P

Once again,

Happy 13th Anniversary<3

When I saw that it was 9/11 today, it somehow made me think of how many years have gone by since then, and the 4 years that I've been through in Nanyang.

To be extremely honest, Secondary 4 has been the most enjoyable school year since primary school. And it's all thanks to the wonderful friends I have. Who are all so selfless, helpful, encouraging and kind-hearted.
You guys are the best, best friends I have ever made, and I'm so glad to have met you guys.

I ever wondered. What would life be like now, if I did not enter 402? What if I had entered some other class without you guys? I can't imagine. I simply can't. You guys, every single one of you has changed me in some way, definitely. All of you said that I have changed, and I credit everyone of you guys for that. Thank you, so much <3

I'm still not sure why. And I won't bother to find out anymore why I felt just so darn miserable in Secondary 1-2. I have never ever regretted joining OM, in fact, taking part in OM was probably the best thing that ever happened to me from Sec 1-3. Without OM, life would be boring and just pure mugging.

And I realised, this year, studying doesn't seem to be such a terrible thing after all. Just have to work hard and reap the benefits of it. Seeing everyone around me working hard, trying their best, I guess I was motivated too QAQ

I wonder, how much have I matured this past few years? Have I matured from being a weak Secondary 1 to a stronger Secondary 4? I think I have. I hope I have.

EOYs is in exactly 3 weeks. And after that, my Nanyang life would be over.

And guess what. I already have after A level plans.

1) Go to Korea and Japan with Andrea and Vivian. Hopefully, we can catch a CN Blue concert <3

2) Go to Europe myself or with another person. I'll take tons of photographs and post them all on a tumblr.

3) Try to catch an Arashi concert >.<

Ah, who knows what the future holds.

For now, let's just settle what's in front of us FIRST

Wan Xin

Everyone has their own problems, and sometimes, life doesn't go the way you want it to.

But that's life. Life too perfect, wouldn't be called life.

What we've experienced in school, at work, is enough to tell us this very thing: Life is unfair.

No matter how much we complain, it will never turn a 180 degrees to turn into a 'fair' thing.

That's right. Life is unfair. And that's why I hate life so much.

Even though some might say that I'm lucky to have a complete family, lucky to be quite well-off, lucky to live in a developed countries where peace reigns instead of war, like I said, everyone has their own problems.

The pretty girl you see on streets might be devastated because of a break-up.

The drunk man you see in the pub might be devastated over the loss of a loved one.

Everyone has their own problems.

I trouble over the same things everyday. And I believe everyone else does too.

Some are probably better at hiding it with a smile, while some cry it all out at home. It's fine, honestly, "everybody hurts someday and it's okay to be afraid".

Just let it all out if you need to. Holding it in won't do any good.

Continue believing in yourself, continue to strive hard.

Perhaps... just perhaps, you will see the light one day.

It's finally September.

Another 1 more month to go, and I am, I mean we are going to be out of Nanyang.

Before that, there's End of Years, which I really don't want to go through, but oh well.

Anyways, many things have happened in August. There was the 95th Anniversary Musical, of course, as well as Teacher's Day celebration, National Day celebration and all the festivities.

Time passes really fast. Gah, I don't know what to say anymore.

Looking at those pictures, I realised once again that I was such a misfit in primary school. I don't even know how I survived those 6 years with no true friends by my side. I really don't know. Looking back, all the time spent crying, all the time spent screaming at all those backstabbers, they were really not worth it. Was I that unlikable? I don't know. If we were still classmates, would they like the me now? I'm not sure either. Maybe they'll hate me forever.

But then again, I'm thankful for the friends I have now. Every single one of you, no matter how big our group is. I'm afraid things will change in JC, but I believe watermelons will stay as one.

It's not that I'm lazy to make friends, or rather, I'm afraid of making friends. All that has happened in primary school has made me have this phobia of making friends and being so conscious of myself. Because I don't know what is wrong with me. Was I too clingy? Was I just too ugly? Was I just too dishonest? I don't know. Maybe, it was just me. No, correction, it is me.

I'm not looking forward to Hwa Chong, not one bit at all. To see them again, I don't want to. I really don't want to. Another 2 more years, just another 2 more years, then I will probably bid farewell to every single one of those memories. Those detestable memories.

Just another 2 more years. Hang on.

The past few seasons have been pretty boring, with only few animes that really stood out among the rest with their unique plots and character designs. However, Fall 2012 is going to be one where competition is going to be extremely strong and the outcome of "Most Popular Anime of Fall" is not obvious at all.


Above is the list of anime that are going to be aired in Fall 2012, excluding the OVAs.

With the exception of a few shoujo anime, most of this season seems to be leaning slightly towards the action type, which makes it even more worth waiting for it.

Top 10 Anime (so far):

10. Sukitte Ii Na Yo



9. Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun

Oh dear lord.

Why is it everytime he appears, my heart just flips and flips, flutters and flutters.

Why can't you be in my life.

And so, I am currently watching You're Beautiful, even though I am not supposed to since it's the examination period, but I watch it only after I'm done with my stuff so I guess it's okay.

Firstly, I must say why I am so fed up with this drama. BECAUSE, THEY CLEARLY PAIRED THE GIRL UP WITH THE WRONG GUY. Please, Shin Woo, is so much more sweet than any other guy out there and Mi Nam didn't get paired with him. What blasphemy. Seriously. If you don't want him, give him to me. GRRRRR.