And so, tonight, I watched Bungaku Shoujo. And of course I cried. The manga was just so beautiful. But I cried worse when I watched the anime. That girl.

"I'm just 14, I still have time to try. It's fine."

But someone did it. And that someone was the only friend she ever had.

And I cried.

It's amazing how I can see myself in anime characters.

I wonder too. If I'm no longer human, because all the laughter and smiles, I think they are all fake. And one day, someone's gonna come to me and say: "Every word and action of yours isn't real!" And maybe I'll be so devastated and jump off the 4th floor.

Am I no longer human? Because one day when my tears run dry, and I'm can no longer feel, I'm no longer human. I think I've cried half of my tears already. How long does it take for the other half to run dry now?