I'm dying from the cuteness of YongHwa and Min Hyuk in Heartstrings all over.

How you are as a person reflects upon the child you bring up. Look at yourself before scolding us. We learn from you, every single flaw within us has parents as a foundation. Wake up, you aren't perfect, stop trying to impose your views and ideals on the world. Stop it.

Watched MAMA with Chin tonight and it was fun, regardless of the many unfamiliar faces. Shall update on details later on (: Kinda lazy now heh

Key question in life: To be a good daughter or to be myself. 

When I see my primary school friends, regardless if in the condo or in school or anywhere, I always feel this surge of anger within me. This urge to punch and kick them. Not everyone, but most of them. Those who have ridiculed me, those who have made fun of me. Every single one of them, every single one of those in the 'in' group. Bloody, I don't care if you guys have been immature, or whatsoever, I don't bloody care. Insensitive beings. I doubt this lot will ever change. Especially her. Argh. The sight of her makes me want to puke, the sight of her is so irksome, and horribly terrifying. It'll be too selfish for me to say get out of my life. Felt this sudden urge to rant anyway. Next year is going to be so dreadful. So, so dreadful. I don't want to go over anymore. I don't want to. Someone help. Now, I really want the world to end. I'll spend the remaining time with my family and friends and I'll never ever have to face them again.

Sigh, watching Best Artist 2012 performances. Comparing Arashi and KAT-TUN, and wondering why the latter isn't doing as well as the former. I mean, the latter has every potential there is to perform as well. They lack proper promoting and nicer songs. But I swear all their songs are nicer compared to Arashi, that's just subjective though. I'd rather listen to pop-rock than bubblegum pop, I really do. Not critisizing Arashi or anything, that's their style, so they should stick to it, songs that keep spirits up, songs that make people bounce along. But I really really feel KAT-TUN deserves more recognition, for their unique style compared to the rest of Johnny's and their personalities are really not that bad. Kame is by far, a respectable entertainer who takes his job very seriously. Maru apparently does his job very seriously as well, too seriously at times. Taguchi's personality is lovable, I mean who wouldn't like that dorky personality of his. Koki looks bad-ass but he is mature and he raps good. Ueda's a little mysterious, but his smile is beautiful. Their group chemistry is not bad, really. Hope their glory days will return. Ganbatte! :D

It's been long since I've watched a recent Arashi video haha. But looking at them still makes me smile so much, obviously, this inner fangirl still exists haha. I will return to the fandom soon, I guess, once this Sherlock craze dies down slightly. Ahhh, I really still do love them after all. AHHH THEY ARE TOO CUTE.

If the cause of unrest is cowardice, why can't people be brave? Be brave to face your fears and try to overcome. Not facing them is a sign of being a coward. Stop being a coward. Move on.

"The order of things in which you arrange, reflects your reliance, your affections accordingly."

What a discovery, yes.

The end of November is arriving, well, to be exact, it's 4 days from the end of November. How have I spent my November this year? Certainly, it has been different from the past years. Even though I'm writing this as though time passes too fast, however, I think otherwise. Time is passing too slowly. For some reason, graduation seems like it had occurred ages ago. That feeling of longing and positive pain is slowly vanishing as well. It's not that I do not miss them, but it's the fact that I might have accepted this fact and moved on. Ultimately, there's no point in dwelling over these friendships, because pondering over these just signifies the fear that these relationships might end, and I don't want to think of that. What have I done in November? I have not done much. I bought tons of books to catch up my readings with, I travelled to Malaysia and back, probably going to do so for a couple more weeks, I've met up with my friends, celebrated birthdays, turned 16 in November. That's quite a fair bit going on, but I still can't help but feel that life's been kinda boring. Simply put, I miss school. Back then, when we were cursing our lives - to be born in this Singaporean society - burying our heads in books, trying to do the best we can, I sort of miss that life. Because life seems a little empty now, or rather, there's no goal. But I don't blame that entirely on life of course, because I control life. And I've been lazy. Too lazy to apply for part time jobs, too lazy to contact endless tutors to give myself a headstart on the syllabus, to lazy to move my eyes away from Downton Abbey. But Downton Abbey is a nice period drama, better than all that Korean cousins I see on television. Sigh, with December approaching, I wish I could make use of this time better. Let me start with finding an economics tutor, shall I?

Back from Singapore yayyyy~~ But I'm so tired -yawns- Hope I can wake up tomorrow morning!!!

I'm officially 16 now. I'm officially a step closer to being a twenties girl. 

Final minute of my birthday.

Just a few words, Wan Xin, you're now 16. Jiayou for JC! <3

7th day after liberation:

Today's Life Sciences GCP was awesome xD Had so much fun using the flow cytometry. ALL MY CELLS DIED YAY. HAHAHA. Anyway, I got my first polaroid today! I think I'll bring it to SP tomorrow and take a picture of us in our lab coats xD

Title cards for Elementary and Sherlock, they look similar, don't they?

CBS on the right, and BBC on the left

6th day after liberation:

Happy Deepavali! :D

Just finished lunch and feeling a little bored. Was scrolling though tumblr and admiring all the pretty Sherlock fanarts. I must say I was really really impressed, I can't even draw a stickman. Makes me feel kinda useless haha xD Mr Bean is airing! God, that guy is a genius <3

How can this be legal. Too pretty, and it's hand-drawn.

I'm starting to doubt.

4th day after libertation:

It's Cher's birthday, and this officially marks the 4th day of freedom. Wow. Time passes really quickly -.-

Watched Shin Sekai Yori yesterday, and once again, I was struck by the epic-ness of it all. How would children feel when you realise that the adults in your world are all liars? How would we feel when the only people we can trust are our closest friends and species that are non-human at all? This episode of Shin Sekai  Yori challenged the kids - based on trust in a life and death situation. It was action packed and Satoru really got me screaming on the inside for him. Such a willful guy, when looking so vulnerable is squeal worthy, especially when he's so worn out because he was trying to protect his beloved. I have high hopes for Shin Sekai Yori, really high hopes. I wonder how it's going to fold out, this story.

Watched Parade's End last night, still don't bloody get a thing that's going on. Things about being Catholic, Anglican and of all sorts, I don't understand. Sorry for being utterly ignorant about the world, I shall read up more about it.

Meanwhile, I have to fangirl a little. Benedict Cumberbatch's voice has to be the sexiest on Earth.

2nd day after liberation.

Today was just epic. I can't explain how awesome those guys are~

And my voice fetish is getting worse.

1st day after freedom:

Today was pretty boring. Stayed at home watching Sherlock. And I decided to keep myself entertained by doing an entry everyday. While watching Sherlock again, I wondered if there was anyone who could really have been as genius like as him. Although he doesn't seem to have the slightest hint of general knowledge, he knows what to store in his brain and what not to. A skill I could honestly use.

But really, if someone like Sherlock Holmes existed, I would honestly worship him. For now, let's just say I'm falling, or already in love with Benedict Cumberbatch's interpretation of Sherlock Holmes. Simple gorgeous, eloquent and elegant. Everything on him's vintage. Where does he get the money from anyway - he doesn't accept money for his services. But as long it keeps him out of boredom, anything works, I guess.

Can't wait for Season 3!

On another note, I've got to add travel Europe on my wishlist, or maybe just England for that, wouldn't have that much time in my lifetime to travel that much. Maybe, I will, if I migrate there. God knows though.

Goodnight!

P.S. Trying to learn the morse code, let's hope it's something that will come in handy. Or maybe it's time to learn another language. Oh Japanese, when did I say I wanted to start learning it? Oh, this holidays! And when is it now? The holidays! So... it's kind of retarded keeping up this conversation with myself, I'm even typing it out.

Goodnight! For real.

Edit:

Oh god damn, I'm still damn bored. Everyone on twitter was like oh prom was so fun. And I'm like stop saying that, cuz I'm bored. Needed a break from Sherlock anyway. Everyone outside is already practically asleep. In my neighbourhood that is. There's GCP tomorrow. Don't know how I should feel about it.... will we be learning about H5N1? Just asking. Bye.

Edit:

Can't sleep. And seriously am bored.

I don't know anymore.

Too many anime crushes are not good for my heart D:

"Dance like there's nobody watching, love like you'll never be hurt, sing like there's nobody listening, and live like there's heaven on Earth."


Who came up with this must be a genius.

That's right. Be happy. I guess that's all that matters, for now.

Minion! My reply to you, is going to be quite long, so I'll just type it in a blog post.

Thank you for that message, I teared a lot, but what you said made so much sense. I don't want watermelons to drift apart from one another, I want us to stick together forever. Celeste, you have changed me so much. You've made me more open about stuff, you've been such a pillar of support to me, I don't know how to express my thanks for you. I really really love you a lot.

But, don't make it sound like you're not going to be seeing us anymore, if you don't make it across with us. You will still always be in our hearts, I'm sure of it. You've been the very soul and heart of watermelons and watermelons would not be watermelons without you. If I'm going to be very frank, yes, I'm not sure if you can make it over, and I'm not going to say comforting words that would make you feel worse in case they're not true. But that's because I know, you'll have to face whatever that comes one day. However, no one said that you're going to be facing it alone, we are all here with you. We'll face it together, and we will help out with this limited strength of 9 we have. There will always be 9 hands there minion, so there's no need to be scared. I'm not confident I can help you a lot, like I said, I can't provide you with the sense of security or make jokes that the rest can, I'm quite useless to be honest, but I hope if it's just providing you with a listening ear, perhaps, it can help you feel better (:

I still have a lot to say, but, I can't seem to carry on, because if I do, I'll really cry.

Stay strong Celeste, because only if you do, then we'll have that strength to stay strong with you.

The song above is for you. Might not be suitable, but it really told me a lot, about life. Hope you enjoy it!

Good Night<3

Some people just don't see that, the smile on your friend's face, might mean so much more than just happiness. Try looking behind it sometimes, will you?