Unsure

Recently, I have been pretty unsure about my life. What I plan to do with it, and how I plan to live it. All these doubts remain fuzzy because no one knows what the future can bring.

Reading lots of books recently has made me realise many things. More about human emotions I guess. How important home can be, and what is love, exactly. Honestly, I sometimes ask myself, how human am I? Am I human enough? After many rounds of thinking, I decided that I might not be the person who is the most human at heart, but at least I have feelings. What makes one human in the first place? Not killing someone, not abusing animals? I am sure it's not just all that. What makes human really human are emotions I guess. What would life be like without feelings and emotions? There would be no happiness, no love and weirdly enough, no disappointment and negative feelings. We would all be like robots, therefore not human. How un-human am I? I don't know, maybe because I don't cry at things I am supposed to cry for. I don't honestly feel that easily even if I look like I do. I get sappy when I watch romance anime, but stories like My Sister's Keeper, I brush then off like it is nothing, because I don't feel. Once in a while, I'll feel guilty for not feeling sad, but...

Sigh. I wish someone could consolidate all the answers to my doubts in a book. That would be great.